40 lbs until I sleep...

Alright, I'm not exactly Robert Frost, or even much of a poet in general. However, today as I climbed on the scales, I realized that I have gotten under 40 lbs to go to hit my goal weight. That is an accomplishment! I started out hoping to lose enough to get down to 250 last year, and with luck I will be at 150 in midsummer 2009. Yeah for me! 40 lbs seems a very doable goal for me at the moment. I usually work in minigoals...but this is almost minigoal enough to be perfect!

Berating myself and the chickens of the world...

Weakness...shear laziness and weakness and a host of other emotions cause me to binge. I know as I'm putting the food in my mouth that I'm going to regret it, but still I continue to forge ahead with bad habits, using the justification that I deserve it. I think that the American public overuses that sentiment, as do I when it comes to foods I want and can't have. I speak of chicken wings. Again.

For the third week in a row we went to Dino's for wings on a Monday night...and for the third week in a row I will gain weight and slip backwards in weight from salt gain. Argh. Why do I do this to myself? I am sabotaging myself with chicken fat! But...the alternatives aren't nearly so appealing...grilled tuna and couscous just doesn't have the same kick as Yuengling and wings.

So should I beat myself up or accept a weekly splurge into 2000 calorie territory? I have yet to decide. It really depends on whether or not I really want justification for my actions. I was 194.6 today...I broke 195. But I know that I will be back up to 200 tomorrow morning. Were those wings worth 5 lbs of water weight? I'm not totally sure. They definitely were at the time. I don't know what to think. I just want to see a lower number on the scale and the way I'm working isn't helping me out any.

Cheer up, Kris. Get your act in gear and get some work done tomorrow. Eat clean and drink a ton of water to flush the system! You can recover for your 2000 calorie debacle. Chalk it up to a maintaining day and be done with it. Think positive thoughts!

New Low for me!

196.0! Woohoo! Eating 1200 calories a day is essential, dearie...keep it up!

Yesterday was good...we went to the Haunted Trail at Twin Lakes with A and J and had a ball with the vampire and the phantom. The trip finished up with a trip to McD's and I still was down in weight today. Now all I have to do is get my workout in and stay productive.

Ouch...

I feel (or appropriated slipped) down the back stairs this afternoon. The whole left side of my body from my arm to my back to my hip ACHES! Plus, Chas is off the next two days and I wanted to do hard workouts. Suck timing to get hurt...argh!

Welcome to One-derland!

Well, its finally happened...I'm under 200 lbs 10-3. Its taken 13 months of imperfect dieting and lifestyle changes to get me to this place. I still "have miles to go before I sleep" (aka maintain), but I feel some acknowledgment of this accomplishment is noteworthy. I have hovered the past week around the weight though...its as though I can achieve 199, but going any lower isn't going to happen any time soon. The lowest I have seen so far is 197.6, but that was a split second four days ago. Argh...what to do? I am falling into that uncertain land of dipping calories much too low...its a seductive mistress...lower numbers from less food. Why does it seem 1200 calories is the evil number that is keeping me stuck in the high 190s. I know if I stick to this I will make it work, but my patience is wearing thin...if only I could as well!