Making this for myself...

I keep picking up and leaving this blog. I'm so much better about my MS...its just easier to deal with. But I want something that I can look back on during this weight loss journey and look on as more of a diary for myself and my moods. So now I will try again.

Today I feel crumby. I am dizzy and nauseous and just plain yucky. I am at 936 cal for the day so far and I know that I need to eat more. I just can't think of a thing worth eating that isn't going to catapult me over 1200 and into the range of...I don't know, whatever it is that happens over 1200. I know that I should probably be eating more than that anyways, but I just keep thinking that denying myself will quicken the loss. I tell other people this isn't the case, and to be more responsible, but I don't follow that dictate myself very well.

I tested my blood sugar tonight out of curiosity since I feel so crumby...90. That's two hours after I ate. Seems a little low to a girl that is supposed to have insulin resistance issues. I know that this happened last month though. Is there something about the very beginning of my cycle that is chemically kicking my arse? Guess I'll just have to wait and see.

I am thinking about a PB sandwich right now...maybe I will put one on the grill when Chas gets home. He didn't get the job :( so he'll be miserable, poor guy. He tries so hard.

Proof I’ve gone absolutely mad...

I picked Aidyn up from school today and was a little hungry when I got home. No problem I thought, I'll just make myself a little snack. So I run into the kitchen, glance at the fridge and pull out a few things and start measuring. (Yes, I know I'm obsessed..that's the whole point of this.) I prep my snack and come into the livingroom to catch the tale end of Scooby Doo with Aidyn. Aidyn then proceeds to ask what I'm eating...hoping of course to get some if it suits his palate. My reply is...

Raw cabbage with salsa and milled flax seed

Then I heard what I said to myself. I am insane! I was thinking just before Aidyn asked that I had created a yummy little snack. Then when I actually spoke aloud the words, I realized I'm insane. That's not a snack...its a colon cleanse. What has happened to me? And now as I stare longingly at the empty bowl, I wish I could have more. I'm so sad an individual. I need to get out more.

Rant against the government for the day...

The laws of physics and gravity are conspiring against us....and, some days, I think our government, men, food manufacturers and bottled water corporations are in league with them as well. Cheer up though! I have it on the best authority that being a conspiracy theorist burns calories. In my mind, all bad things in this world can be blamed on one of FOUR things ...

1. Humidity

2. Republicans

3. Carbohydrates

4. Satan

Soooo..... take your pick and blame one of those four things!!! In our situation today, the problem is clearly Republicans. Grrr...... those pesky suits!

http://www.breitbart.com/article.php?id=D8UCD VSO1&show_article=1

Congressional leaders announced a deal with the White House Thursday on an economic stimulus package that would give most tax filers refunds of $600 to $1,200, and more if they have children.

(SNIP)

Individuals who pay income taxes would get up to $600, working couples $1,200 and those couples with children an additional $300 per child under the agreement. Workers who make at least $3,000 but don't pay taxes would get $300 rebates

(SNIP)

They're trying to stimulate the economy, right? Free money! Woohoo!

Wait...didn't they do this a couple of years ago? And didn't people use the money to pay off credit card debt? And then wasn't everyone upset because they got lower refunds or actually had to pay the next year?

Actually, it's just an "advance" on your tax refund for NEXT year... which will be correspondingly lower. And don't forget...they'll make you pay taxes on it for 2008 also...gotta love it!

Sounds like a serious attempt by the Bush administration to make it look that the economy that is snowballing its way into a recession is healthy. Then...if the Dems actually get their act together and get into office...they will look like idiots this time next year after the inauguration as people complain about having lower tax returns and a recession in full swing.

Gotta love politics.

Anthropomorphizing my scale...

Do you ever wonder if gravity is conspiring against you? With your scale? To drive you nuts? Do you step on your scale over and over again in the hopes that you can get the weight down just a teensy bit??? Hee hee hee! I do this! In fact, I think I do so MUCH "scale stepping" that I actually burn calories.

I am not too proud to admit that (in addition to getting weighed butt nekkid), I've tried (1) holding my breathe; (2) exhaling; (3) standing on one foot; and (4) going to the bathroom ..... JUST TO SEE IF I CAN GET THE SCALE TO SHOW WHAT I WANT IT TO SHOW! If anyone ever had a candid camera on me (and what a scary prospect that would be), they would see me holding my breathe, balancing on one foot, and trying to look down at the scale .... all without falling off and killing one of the dogs!

Today, I like Mr. Scale ... because I lost weight. But I've put him on notice that this may well be an on-again, off-again romance ... depending on his next weigh-in.

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Diet foods that I cannot live without...

So as I travel and travail on my diet journey, I find new and interesting foods that make me truly wonder how I ever lived without them. This week in my foray into diet land I was back at the Co-op (East End Food Co-op, Wilkensburg, PA). I stumbled across the most yummy black bean tortilla chips by Guiltless Gourmet. They are 130 cal, 3 g fat, 2 g fiber and basically awesome. To top it off, 18 yummy chips is a serving and they are certified organic. Only $2.17 to make a happy tummy!

Chas is also trying to rededicate himself to the diet craze that has swept our home. He hates yogurt, but this whole Dannon Activia line with the tummy friendly enzymes is a great thing for him. He tries the strawberry Activia with craisins for a snack...about 240 calories, 2 g fat, 3 g fiber, 8 g protein. Yum!

Aidyn's selection is vegan Boca Burgers...he thinks they are great vegetables! At first we tried to trick him into thinking it was chicken to make sure he would try it, but then he asked what part of the chicken it was. We finally 'fessed up that it was veggies and he said they were great veggies. So what better recommendations can I give?

$2.53 Spicy Thai Couscous with Asian veggie slaw...

This is an awesome meal...cheap and easy. All you need is:

3/4 cup nonfat plain yogurt
1/4 cup peanut butter
4 tbsp light soy sauce
1/8 cup (or more if you like it really spicy) Red Hot
1 tbsp lemon juice

Blend together and pour over 1 cup prepared couscous (1 cup dried couscous and 1.5 cups water/veggie broth...place in microwave for five minutes and voila)...yum! You can make the sauce while the couscous is cooking.

Pictsweet makes a great frozen Asian veggie mix (on sale at Wal-mart this week for $1.28 a bag)...1 g fat, 200 mg sodium. Place veggies in microwave for 5 minutes while your setting the table...

Costs:

Couscous: $0.75
Sauce: Ingredients in fridge, so maybe $0.50
Veggies: $1.28

Grand total: $2.53 for four servings, or $0.64 a serving for an incredible meal in under ten minutes and about 260 calories! Add a grilled chicken breast or spinach salad if you're looking to up the calorie value.